Thursday, July 28, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
Love it! Words of Wisdom!
Some people have not learned this! Im glad at 24 years of age I can finally say Ive got a good grasp!
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2009/08/11/7-ways-to-give-an-apology-4-ways-to-accept-one/
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2009/08/11/7-ways-to-give-an-apology-4-ways-to-accept-one/
Saturday, July 23, 2011
9 signs you might be Selfish
9 Signs You Might Be Selfish
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But first, two definitions.
Selfish = Focusing on one’s own needs, wants, desires and pleasures. Not focusing on the needs, wants, desires and pleasures of others.
Selflessness = Having little to no concern for one’s own needs, wants, desires and pleasures, but showing lots of concern for the needs of others.
Now for the list.
- Everyone is selfish sometimes. Unless you are a canonized Saint or an enlightened being, then you are probably a lot like me. Sometimes you behave selfishly. Other times you behave selflessly. Refusing to admit this is both selfish and misguided.
- If you think you deserve to be canonized as a Saint, then you are selfish. The desire to have others know you, revere you, and recognize you is a self-focused desire. You will be truly selfless if someone offers to canonize you and you turn down that offer by saying, “Oh, no, this other person deserves it and would benefit from that a lot more than I would. Please give this other person the honor. I do not deserve it or need it.” This holds true for any title of recognition.
- It’s selfish to call someone else selfish. By accusing others of being selfish, you are attempting to bring others down and peg and yourself up a peg. This is, by nature, a self-focused action. You are motivated by concern for your own reputation and not by your concern for the well-being of others.
- Selflessness breeds happiness. Selfishness breeds unhappiness. If you are angry, worried, guilty, frustrated, depressed, envious, or jealous, you are probably focusing on yourself and your own needs and not on the needs of others. As soon as you stop focusing on yourself and start focusing on others, you will find that your negative feelings evaporate.
- Selflessness can be scary. That’s why so few people manage to act selflessly all of the time. It requires a huge amount of trust and vulnerability. We are often our most selfish when we are terrified.
- If you think some people deserve your help, but others don’t, there’s still a lot of selfish in you. It’s only once you can love every living being equally—no matter their race, gender, sexual orientation, religion, age, or political party—that you will have completely transcended selfishness.
- Sometimes it’s selfless to be selfish. If you completely neglect your own needs and drain yourself dry, there will be no you left to focus on the needs of others. It is selfless to make sure you get enough rest, for instance. It’s easier to be selfless when you are rested, healthy, fit and well fed.
- Sometimes it’s seemingly selfish to be selfless. In focusing on the needs of many others, you might have to neglect the needs of a few. The few who are neglected might selfishly accuse you of being selfish. As long as your actions were focused on helping others, this is not true. The ones who accuse you of being selfish are actually the ones who are selfish as they are the ones who are concerned about their own needs.
- It’s selfless to forgive people for calling you selfish. After all they can’t learn how to be selfless unless they have role models like you to emulate. Also, as I mentioned, they are scared. If you respond to their show of selfishness with selflessness, you will show them what true courage looks like.
Matthew 5 Vs 1-14
Matthew 5
Introduction to the Sermon on the Mount
1 Now when Jesus saw the crowds, he went up on a mountainside and sat down. His disciples came to him, 2 and he began to teach them.The Beatitudes
He said:3 “Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
4 Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
5 Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
7 Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
8 Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
9 Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called children of God.
10 Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11 “Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. 12 Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.
Salt and Light
13 “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
Friday, July 22, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Emma Kates 3rd Princess Zebra Birthday!
Emma Kate ready for her 3rd Princess Zebra Birthday party!
Shirt orderd from ETSY.com!
Bow made by my friend, Nicki Kelly!
The Table set up--hot pink table cover with skirt
Centerpieces consisted of tissue paper pom flowers in a hot pink glitter bucket with hot pink sand to hold it in place! These were the the most time consuming decorations of the party, but soooooooooo worth it! Ill upload a video later of how to make them! :)
Hot Pink and Black cupcakes
Toppers were ordered in Birthday package from ETSY.com as well! I will upload the shop name later, too! :)
Cupcake holder I bought from Walmart! Can you believe it?
Table had Black table cover and skirt-Party City
Decorations (Happy Birthday Emma Kate, Emma Banner and cupcake toppers) were made and ordered from shop on Etsy.com. Ill upload shop address later.
Tulle bought, cut, and layered to go with Emma Banner and behind table
Same tissue paper pom flowers as on seating tables!
Gift Table
Black Table cover and skirt--party city
Zebra Crepe Paper on front hanging decor--Party City
Emma "3" birthday penant-Etsy shop ordered with package
Tissue Poms, lanterns, paper flowers, and streamers hanging above table at varying heights for decor--I made tissue poms, lanterns were bought at party city as well as the streamers
Balloons were ordered from Party City
Closeup view of Cupcakes
Center pieces--Tissue Paper pom flowers on black spray painted dowel rods (cut to size)
Small hot pink glitter bucket with hot pink Crayola Sand
"Emma" confetti on table
Picture underneath hanging decor--explained above
Another part of the Table...some people sitting down to eat. Not everyone was there yet!
Emmas Bow
Part 1 of the food table---From left to right--Food, Gift Bags, Chips, Bread, napkins (zebra pink and black), plates (zebra pink and black), and cups.
Emma's Princess Jumpy Castle
Instead of a "3" Candle--we found a 3 sparkler. She loved it!
My little poser!
Emma with My dad--Her PawPaw...She adores him! He made her day so special JUST BY BEING THERE!!!!!!
Our Family--Brother in Law Justin aka as Unka J, Katie, Maw D (Dianne), PaePae (Mr Mike), Me, And my wonderful Husband, Whitney. These people love and adore Emma so much..it makes me so happy to know how loved she is! No amount of money means anything compared to these relationships! They made Emma's Birthday So special! All of her guests did, but her family means so much!
My beautiful Mother, aka Mimi! She adores her Mimi and Mimi adores Emma Kate! This woman is always there for us and always supportive. Mimi made Emma's birthday so special!
One of Emma Kates Birthday Photos!
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
ABCs Of Tabitha
A - Age: 24
B - Bed size: Queen
C - Chore you hate: Laundry
D - Dog’s name: Isabelle, Jacque and Tasha
E - Essential start your day item: Toothpaste
F - Favorite color: Pink... obviously
G - God: Merciful
H - Height: 5’8
I - Insect I would like to be: Butterfly
J - Juice: Cranberry
K - Kids: Emma Kate Rogers 07/13/2008
L - Likes: My husband, My daughter, my job, make up, time with friends, time with family, dancing, fashion, exercising, reading, Facebook, and shopping
M - Mom’s name: Angie (Angelia)
N - Nightly routine: Cook or buy dinner, spend time with family, watch some tv, work out, bath, then bed!
O - Overnight hospital stay other than when you were born: Emma Kate's delivery
P - Pet Peeve: Lying, Making excuses, not texting back or returning phone calls
Q - Question: How long til vacation, again???????????????
R - Red or pink: Pink
S - Sibling(s): Taylor (sister) Coby (adopted brother) Haleigh (adopted sister) Jaylin (step sister)
T - Time you wake up: 6-7 am
U - Under my bed you will find: none ya business! But most probably dust mites..I rarely climb under there :) Shhh..dont tell anyone!
V - Vegetable you dislike: Celery yuck!
W - Ways you run late: Emma Kate! ;)
X - Xrays you have had: too many to count
Y - Yummy food you make: Does mac n cheese count??????
Z - Zoo favorite: Monkeys
B - Bed size: Queen
C - Chore you hate: Laundry
D - Dog’s name: Isabelle, Jacque and Tasha
E - Essential start your day item: Toothpaste
F - Favorite color: Pink... obviously
G - God: Merciful
H - Height: 5’8
I - Insect I would like to be: Butterfly
J - Juice: Cranberry
K - Kids: Emma Kate Rogers 07/13/2008
L - Likes: My husband, My daughter, my job, make up, time with friends, time with family, dancing, fashion, exercising, reading, Facebook, and shopping
M - Mom’s name: Angie (Angelia)
N - Nightly routine: Cook or buy dinner, spend time with family, watch some tv, work out, bath, then bed!
O - Overnight hospital stay other than when you were born: Emma Kate's delivery
P - Pet Peeve: Lying, Making excuses, not texting back or returning phone calls
Q - Question: How long til vacation, again???????????????
R - Red or pink: Pink
S - Sibling(s): Taylor (sister) Coby (adopted brother) Haleigh (adopted sister) Jaylin (step sister)
T - Time you wake up: 6-7 am
U - Under my bed you will find: none ya business! But most probably dust mites..I rarely climb under there :) Shhh..dont tell anyone!
V - Vegetable you dislike: Celery yuck!
W - Ways you run late: Emma Kate! ;)
X - Xrays you have had: too many to count
Y - Yummy food you make: Does mac n cheese count??????
Z - Zoo favorite: Monkeys
RESPECT is EARNED; NOT JUST GIVEN
re·spect (r-spkt)
tr.v. re·spect·ed, re·spect·ing, re·spects
1. To feel or show deferential regard for; esteem.
2. To avoid violation of or interference with: respect the speed limit.
3. To relate or refer to; concern.
n.
1. A feeling of appreciative, often deferential regard; esteem.
2. The state of being regarded with honor or esteem.
3. Willingness to show consideration or appreciation.
4. respects Polite expressions of consideration or deference
You can respect the rights of someone without respecting the person.
You can confer respect to a person without having any understanding of the abstract notion of rights.
Respect is a very general term.
Respecting children is one aspect of loving them , but it doesn't adequately explain what you are "doing" in relation to loving them.
A relationship is one of mutual respect, but can change once something has been done to harm the respect.
With that being said, Not everyone is ENTITLED to be respected. I feel there should be a level of respecting someone b/c they are human and God's child, but that in NO WAY gives them the right to continually hurt you or berate you. And that it turn does not REQUIRE respect to be given!
Children respect their parents because that is a requirement from God, but that doesnt mean there cant be a mutual respect to the child. And if you arent a parent to "that child", you are owed nothing but the basic respect everyone is given. That you are God's child and human!!!!
tr.v. re·spect·ed, re·spect·ing, re·spects
1. To feel or show deferential regard for; esteem.
2. To avoid violation of or interference with: respect the speed limit.
3. To relate or refer to; concern.
n.
1. A feeling of appreciative, often deferential regard; esteem.
2. The state of being regarded with honor or esteem.
3. Willingness to show consideration or appreciation.
4. respects Polite expressions of consideration or deference
You can respect the rights of someone without respecting the person.
You can confer respect to a person without having any understanding of the abstract notion of rights.
Respect is a very general term.
Respecting children is one aspect of loving them , but it doesn't adequately explain what you are "doing" in relation to loving them.
A relationship is one of mutual respect, but can change once something has been done to harm the respect.
With that being said, Not everyone is ENTITLED to be respected. I feel there should be a level of respecting someone b/c they are human and God's child, but that in NO WAY gives them the right to continually hurt you or berate you. And that it turn does not REQUIRE respect to be given!
Children respect their parents because that is a requirement from God, but that doesnt mean there cant be a mutual respect to the child. And if you arent a parent to "that child", you are owed nothing but the basic respect everyone is given. That you are God's child and human!!!!
This Article hits close to home....
Although it isnt exactly like my situation, it sounds so familiar...and as I had said, hits close to home! I hope someone gets comfort, as I did, with this article...Knowing Im not the only one (family) going through this!
http://talkaboutmarriage.com/family-parenting-forums/23880-my-wife-hates-my-daughter-help.html
http://talkaboutmarriage.com/family-parenting-forums/23880-my-wife-hates-my-daughter-help.html
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Saturday, July 9, 2011
What a Tragedy..
Im so tired of the fake...The fake personality...The fake Christianity..The Fake love...The Fake relationships!
TIRED!
I completely understand why this person is they way they are, or atleast I think I do! They're damaged..(supposedly). For all we know every story they have ever spoken of could be false b/c they are a pathological liar! But, if its true they have a reason to be semi-broken, with this tragic life of theirs. Regardless, you should live forward not backwards. IF you have problems, you should deal with them! Let GOD take care of what you CANT! IF You're such an "awesome Christian" you should know how to "fix you"..and thats through Christ! Not force others to deal with your issues. Stop feeling sorry for yourself....and always "Woe is ME"! Take your meds, and MOVE ON!
No one is sitting around thinking about you, thinking about hurting you, ruining your marriage, or making you miserable. YOU choose to put that front and center in your life, and not MOVE forward and leave the PAST in the PAST!
I understand you're bi polar, I get you have psychotic episodes, I get you're crazy....But stop making others miserable BC you ARE and STOP driving others CRAZY!
No one wants what you have..mostly b/c everyone already has better and more...
If you truly love someone, you ARENT going to push them away from other people who are important to them. You WOULDNT cause issues, or continue to bring up ISSUES! You would sacrifice your own self and pride for your loved one...BELIEVE ME, That is all I have done!
With all of this being said...I understand now YOU CAN NOT RATIONALIZE WITH AN IRRATIONAL person, So I choose to not even try anymore! You will never be right, you will never be accepted, and you will never be loved. And because of that simple fact, things will most probably NEVER EVER change! SAD, but TRUE!
What a TRAGEDY!
TIRED!
I completely understand why this person is they way they are, or atleast I think I do! They're damaged..(supposedly). For all we know every story they have ever spoken of could be false b/c they are a pathological liar! But, if its true they have a reason to be semi-broken, with this tragic life of theirs. Regardless, you should live forward not backwards. IF you have problems, you should deal with them! Let GOD take care of what you CANT! IF You're such an "awesome Christian" you should know how to "fix you"..and thats through Christ! Not force others to deal with your issues. Stop feeling sorry for yourself....and always "Woe is ME"! Take your meds, and MOVE ON!
No one is sitting around thinking about you, thinking about hurting you, ruining your marriage, or making you miserable. YOU choose to put that front and center in your life, and not MOVE forward and leave the PAST in the PAST!
I understand you're bi polar, I get you have psychotic episodes, I get you're crazy....But stop making others miserable BC you ARE and STOP driving others CRAZY!
No one wants what you have..mostly b/c everyone already has better and more...
If you truly love someone, you ARENT going to push them away from other people who are important to them. You WOULDNT cause issues, or continue to bring up ISSUES! You would sacrifice your own self and pride for your loved one...BELIEVE ME, That is all I have done!
With all of this being said...I understand now YOU CAN NOT RATIONALIZE WITH AN IRRATIONAL person, So I choose to not even try anymore! You will never be right, you will never be accepted, and you will never be loved. And because of that simple fact, things will most probably NEVER EVER change! SAD, but TRUE!
What a TRAGEDY!
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
My Mother--Also known as MIMI!
My mother is the most beautiful person (inside and out) that I know. All of our lives she gave to us so un-selfishly! She would go with out new clothes or new cars or new anything to make sure we had what we need, and most of what we wanted. Growing up, I remember asking my self if she ever got a chance to relax, or take care of herself..and as I got older I realized she never had the chance.
She went to nursing school when we were young, and graduated with a high GPA--that's amazing considering she had to be a full time mom, wife, and student. I truly don't know how she did it, but she did. Her determination and will inspired me to always do better and never give up...
My mom was raised in church, although she left briefly, she went back. She met my dad when she was ONLY 14! And she was married at 16!!!! Can you believe someone finding their husband or wife at that age?? She did. I know God used my mom to reach my dad..She brought my dad to church and he was filled with the Holy Ghost. Both parents then re-dedicated their life to Christ and continued the LEGACY my Mawmaw Birdi started. They then raised us in truth. Truth that will be passed on from generation to generation. I love them for that!
Even though my mom has made mistakes, SHE will NEVER be tarnished in my eyes. We all do things we regret and we all do things we wish we could change, but those mistakes make us who we are. Make us stronger, more defined as a human, and closer to God after forgiveness. My mom and step dad are prayer warriors! They are up at the crack of dawn, and stay up late praying! They fast methodically...they Want our family to be saved and want our family to be blessed. Its awe inspiring. To constantly think and give to others, even when you don't have much for yourself.
My mom never meddles and gets messy. She never entertains DRAMA. She never instigates problems. She never allows things like that to creep in and control her life. No matter what names she is called (by certain drama queens or attention seekers), or how she is berated...she continually forgives and forgets all trespasses. She never holds a grudge and is always willing to "move on". She always takes the high road! She even prays for the people who hate or despise her! What a GODLY WOMAN!
My mom also took on being a foster parent about 4 years ago, one more thing to add to her "good Samaritan" file. She had quite a few kids come and go, but she has now adopted 2 children. My baby brother Coby (shes had since birth) and baby sister Haleigh. What an added joy to our lives. Having those children NEVER effects her relationship with Emma or me of my sister. Emma always has company and family to play with. Those relationships are unbreakable! She is such an amazing grandmother and mother. She always gives 110% to all of her relationships!
My mom is my best friend. We talk multiple times a day, even if for only a few seconds. No matter the time or hour, I know I can count on her to always be there for me. She has never allowed anyone to treat me badly, and does not stand for her children being hurt. I can only say how much I love and adore her, and I hope to be only HALF the woman she is today! I love you Momma!
Monday, June 27, 2011
My family
Peace and Reconciliation!
http://tilz.tearfund.org/webdocs/Tilz/Roots/English/Peace-building/Peace_Esection2.pdf
JUST SO EVERYONE IS CLEAR, THIS IS NOT SOMETHING I WROTE. THE LINK THAT YOU CLICK IS TO THE ACTUAL ARTICLE. JUST MAKING IT CLEAR (IM NOT PLAGIARISING)--SOME FOLKS ARE TOO IGNORANT TO FIGURE OUT WHICH BUTTONS TO CLICK TO VIEW THE ORIGINAL ARTICLE--SINCE THE LINK WAS INCLUDED IN MY ORIGINAL POST! BUT, JUST MAKING SURE I COVERED ALL BASES!
GLAD I COULD CLEAR THAT UP FOR EVERYONE!! HAVE A NICE AND BLESSED DAY!
THANKS FOR READING!
JUST SO EVERYONE IS CLEAR, THIS IS NOT SOMETHING I WROTE. THE LINK THAT YOU CLICK IS TO THE ACTUAL ARTICLE. JUST MAKING IT CLEAR (IM NOT PLAGIARISING)--SOME FOLKS ARE TOO IGNORANT TO FIGURE OUT WHICH BUTTONS TO CLICK TO VIEW THE ORIGINAL ARTICLE--SINCE THE LINK WAS INCLUDED IN MY ORIGINAL POST! BUT, JUST MAKING SURE I COVERED ALL BASES!
GLAD I COULD CLEAR THAT UP FOR EVERYONE!! HAVE A NICE AND BLESSED DAY!
THANKS FOR READING!
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Church
Ive always gone to church. My parents never let me miss. I was forced to participate in everything, even if I didnt want to. Over time I learned the reasons why my parents pushed me into always going to church, participating in the choir, bible quizzing, plays/dramas, and youth groups....Eventually I even began to enjoy some of those things, but sometimes I just wanted to be a teenager. Enjoy LIFE. To stay home or go hang out with my friends. I look back today and I am SO very THANKFUL they pushed me in the right direction.
I have a constant pull to attend church (even if I cant), and I constantly think of ways to try and make life more simple so I can participate in choir, church plays, or church assemblies or special events, or....to just go to church. As of late, I havent been able to do anything of the sort and I hope to attend more frequent. It will happen!!! I am so Thankful for that legacy--Holy Ghost filled parents and step parents. Knowing that my name is called out in prayer daily is a constant reminder of where I should be!
Even though I havent made it to church in a while, I know God tugs on my heart. I know my relationship with Christ. I know God pulls me there..and Im so thankful for that, because if you cant feel any tug he has left you. I still pray daily, and I still strive to do better daily. Some time the smallest changes in life make the biggest difference..a simple prayer or a day of fasting can move mountains. I only try to be better, not the best..And its a daily struggle. I will not be made to feel guilty for not attending 4 walls to worship my God..first and formost, b/c no one knows my relationship with Christ and shouldnt judge anyway! Some people say its a delusion from the devil..keeping you away form church (and that may be somewhat true), but honestly its more true to those who couldnt care less about loving Jesus or striving to atleast have some type of relationship with HIM! God knows our heart!
Today we couldnt make it to church, but we worshipped at home watching a live stream of my fathers church, Livingway. What an amazing message from Bro. Massey, that God laid upon his heart. It was just what I needed to hear..its exactly what Ive been speaking about for a while now and I was looking for validation...Boy, God showed up and told me exactly what I needed to do! FORGIVE! LET GO! Even if Im never forgiven by those I have hurt, I will not let my spirit die or be diseased by what has been controlling my life! I will refrain from the things that USED to be done...I will NOT allow the past to creep into my life anymore! You have to take the shovel of forgiveness and dig up the old roots and get rid of em!!!!
I will always try to raise Emma where she knows that it is the most important thing to be in Church everytime the doors are open. She sometimes even asks to go...and I love seeing her clap her hands and mimic what others do while worshipping because its so sincere...I love hearing her pray and love hearing all she prays for! She will at times feel the way I did growing up, but when she looks back, she will be thankful for the legacy I pass onto her!
I have a constant pull to attend church (even if I cant), and I constantly think of ways to try and make life more simple so I can participate in choir, church plays, or church assemblies or special events, or....to just go to church. As of late, I havent been able to do anything of the sort and I hope to attend more frequent. It will happen!!! I am so Thankful for that legacy--Holy Ghost filled parents and step parents. Knowing that my name is called out in prayer daily is a constant reminder of where I should be!
Even though I havent made it to church in a while, I know God tugs on my heart. I know my relationship with Christ. I know God pulls me there..and Im so thankful for that, because if you cant feel any tug he has left you. I still pray daily, and I still strive to do better daily. Some time the smallest changes in life make the biggest difference..a simple prayer or a day of fasting can move mountains. I only try to be better, not the best..And its a daily struggle. I will not be made to feel guilty for not attending 4 walls to worship my God..first and formost, b/c no one knows my relationship with Christ and shouldnt judge anyway! Some people say its a delusion from the devil..keeping you away form church (and that may be somewhat true), but honestly its more true to those who couldnt care less about loving Jesus or striving to atleast have some type of relationship with HIM! God knows our heart!
Today we couldnt make it to church, but we worshipped at home watching a live stream of my fathers church, Livingway. What an amazing message from Bro. Massey, that God laid upon his heart. It was just what I needed to hear..its exactly what Ive been speaking about for a while now and I was looking for validation...Boy, God showed up and told me exactly what I needed to do! FORGIVE! LET GO! Even if Im never forgiven by those I have hurt, I will not let my spirit die or be diseased by what has been controlling my life! I will refrain from the things that USED to be done...I will NOT allow the past to creep into my life anymore! You have to take the shovel of forgiveness and dig up the old roots and get rid of em!!!!
I will always try to raise Emma where she knows that it is the most important thing to be in Church everytime the doors are open. She sometimes even asks to go...and I love seeing her clap her hands and mimic what others do while worshipping because its so sincere...I love hearing her pray and love hearing all she prays for! She will at times feel the way I did growing up, but when she looks back, she will be thankful for the legacy I pass onto her!
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Change is good!
So, Since I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) in 2007, I have struggled with my weight everyday. Its been a constant thorn in my side since then... If you know anything about the disorder you know that it causes significant weight gain even with a semi normal diet..and it also makes losing weight harder as well as preventing pregnancy (which makes me sad bc we def want to try for one more baby after this last miscarriage). I can eat exactly what a normal person does even if I cut my calories in half, and Id still not lose weight. Ill never forget my dr telling me "I could put next to someone without PCOS and they be the same weight, put you in a room for a week eating restricted calories and working out and you'd lose weight twice as slow". YAY..that was encouraging. What a bleak outlook! I became so sad and depressed and stressed all it did was make it worse. Now I take 2000mg of glucophage per day, so that it helps with the disorder and also help me lose more weight...
I dont know when I made the decision to be serious about losing the weight (I should say fight to lose it, bc its an uphill battle), but the last few weeks I have been really trying to eat less and better. Then I met a neighbor with the same goals and we have started walking together. It has been the BEST decision EVER. Im also using Myfitnesspal on the Iphone and it hasnt let me down. It measures every single calorie of food that I put in my mouth..including all the nutrients and fats and so on. It is the most amazing thing! So..this is the CHANGE I want! The CHANGE I need! 85 lbs in a year! I WILL DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!! No more stressing out or worrying about how to do it, Im just doing it! No more depression over this...I will conquer it! It will not conquer me!
I dont know when I made the decision to be serious about losing the weight (I should say fight to lose it, bc its an uphill battle), but the last few weeks I have been really trying to eat less and better. Then I met a neighbor with the same goals and we have started walking together. It has been the BEST decision EVER. Im also using Myfitnesspal on the Iphone and it hasnt let me down. It measures every single calorie of food that I put in my mouth..including all the nutrients and fats and so on. It is the most amazing thing! So..this is the CHANGE I want! The CHANGE I need! 85 lbs in a year! I WILL DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!! No more stressing out or worrying about how to do it, Im just doing it! No more depression over this...I will conquer it! It will not conquer me!
The Past
You cannot erase the past, but you must LET IT GO! You cannot change yesterday, but you can always accept the lesson learned!
Ive learned that mistakes will almost always be made, no matter how hard we try to prevent them or make them go away..But mistakes make us wiser, stronger, and better!
Ive been hateful, Ive been ugly, Ive allowed bad things in my life, Ive done bad things, Ive hurt people, Ive hurt family, and Ive hurt friends.
But Ive also been hurt, been pushed away, been neglected, had my heart crushed, lied to, been called names, been blamed...Ive had hurt. Ive been hurt.
All of these things that have been done to me, or that Ive ever done, Have shaped me. Ive learned lessons from each "mistake". With all of that being said, Im ready to live only in the present. All we have is right now, and if we are constantly worried about what others think of us or do to us, we will never be able to truly be happy and live life in the moment! Other wise, We will always be worried about whats going to happen or who's going to hurt us!!!! Im 24 years old and feel wiser beyond my years...the things I did when I was 17, 18,19, or 20 years old are NO LONGER a part of my life or a part of me-----Ive grown up.
Im no longer worried with what ANYONE thinks about me, no longer worried about drama, no longer worried about anything but my husband, daughter, family, job, and friends! I am an ADULT. My past will NOT DEFINE ME!
If you cant move on, dont force others to live in your misery. Just b/c you cant let go of the past, doesnt mean others have to continue to hang on or be brought down to your level! If you cant accept "Im sorry" "Lets move on" "Lets Forget", then you have the problem.
Ahhhhhh, the feeling of RELEASE!
I look forward to my bright future. It will include Growing my relationship with Christ, growing my relationship with my Husband and Daughter, and growing my relationship with Family and Friends. I choose to Focus on the road ahead, no longer looking BACKWARDS! Its the only way to ADVANCE in life! :)
Ive learned that mistakes will almost always be made, no matter how hard we try to prevent them or make them go away..But mistakes make us wiser, stronger, and better!
Ive been hateful, Ive been ugly, Ive allowed bad things in my life, Ive done bad things, Ive hurt people, Ive hurt family, and Ive hurt friends.
But Ive also been hurt, been pushed away, been neglected, had my heart crushed, lied to, been called names, been blamed...Ive had hurt. Ive been hurt.
All of these things that have been done to me, or that Ive ever done, Have shaped me. Ive learned lessons from each "mistake". With all of that being said, Im ready to live only in the present. All we have is right now, and if we are constantly worried about what others think of us or do to us, we will never be able to truly be happy and live life in the moment! Other wise, We will always be worried about whats going to happen or who's going to hurt us!!!! Im 24 years old and feel wiser beyond my years...the things I did when I was 17, 18,19, or 20 years old are NO LONGER a part of my life or a part of me-----Ive grown up.
Im no longer worried with what ANYONE thinks about me, no longer worried about drama, no longer worried about anything but my husband, daughter, family, job, and friends! I am an ADULT. My past will NOT DEFINE ME!
If you cant move on, dont force others to live in your misery. Just b/c you cant let go of the past, doesnt mean others have to continue to hang on or be brought down to your level! If you cant accept "Im sorry" "Lets move on" "Lets Forget", then you have the problem.
Ahhhhhh, the feeling of RELEASE!
I look forward to my bright future. It will include Growing my relationship with Christ, growing my relationship with my Husband and Daughter, and growing my relationship with Family and Friends. I choose to Focus on the road ahead, no longer looking BACKWARDS! Its the only way to ADVANCE in life! :)
My Blessing... my Beautiful Emma Kate
My amazing husband
6 years ago, I met the man of my dreams. The man who has always been there for me, the man who loves me no matter what happens or has happened, the man who gives of himself selflessly, and the man who is the most amazing father to our daughter..Whitney, and I couldnt have hoped or asked for a more amazing man to call my husband and best friend! ....I think back and ask myself, "How did I get him?" God definately knew what he was doing, when he joined these two hearts! He's a constant friend and companion, and my rock! I adore him, and I pray God blesses him and draws him close each day hes alive!! He means the world to me!
Friday, June 24, 2011
Love God. Love People. Love Self.
This has been weighing heavily on my heart lately...and I saw someone post this on Facebook today. You can not use being scared to be a hypocrite as a reason to keep yourself from going to church and serving God .........and that has been on BIG factor in my life. I constantly feel unworthy, b/c I do not want to be seen as person who goes to church and then walks away cussing or causing turmoil (b/c we are human)--and that is so True, but He fixes the broken hearts, heals the busted the lives, loves the unlovable, and forgives the unworthy.
But just because you go to church DOES NOT make you Righteous or Holy. Going to church and worshipping makes you no more a Christian, than you standing in a garage and calling yourself a CAR! There are things you have to make happen in your life, things that move you to a different level. You have to stop making the same mistakes over and over again. Once you sin and ask forgivness, you need not do those things again....Stop preaching to people, and start reaching people! Love God. Love People. Love Self.
Although Ive made many mistakes in my life, I refuse to be judged on whats on the "outside", b/c I know where I stand with my relationship with Christ on the "inside". He is the Center of my universe and life..and just b/c I choose to wear pants, or cut my hair does NOT mean I am less of person or Christian than ANYONE ELSE!
I refuse to be berated, cut down, or name called EVER again! I refuse for my definition of myself be designed by someone else.I choose happiness. I choose love. I choose to love people. I choose to forgive. I choose to forget. I choose to move on! I choose to learn from my mistakes and never look back! And I choose, first and formost, to Completely devote my life to HIM, my husband and my daughter!!
But just because you go to church DOES NOT make you Righteous or Holy. Going to church and worshipping makes you no more a Christian, than you standing in a garage and calling yourself a CAR! There are things you have to make happen in your life, things that move you to a different level. You have to stop making the same mistakes over and over again. Once you sin and ask forgivness, you need not do those things again....Stop preaching to people, and start reaching people! Love God. Love People. Love Self.
Although Ive made many mistakes in my life, I refuse to be judged on whats on the "outside", b/c I know where I stand with my relationship with Christ on the "inside". He is the Center of my universe and life..and just b/c I choose to wear pants, or cut my hair does NOT mean I am less of person or Christian than ANYONE ELSE!
I refuse to be berated, cut down, or name called EVER again! I refuse for my definition of myself be designed by someone else.I choose happiness. I choose love. I choose to love people. I choose to forgive. I choose to forget. I choose to move on! I choose to learn from my mistakes and never look back! And I choose, first and formost, to Completely devote my life to HIM, my husband and my daughter!!
Today is A New Day
So, Ive been thinking about "blogging" for a while now, but Ive never found the time. Being that writing is the easiest form of expression and release of stress for me, I will MAKE the time! I've been dealt tons of problems lately, but I refuse to let them bring me down anymore!
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